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Thursday, November 23rd, 2006
2:40 am	i went to court today for my dad and that shit i have to go back jan 31est. im going ot the club today, ima have two tilts and thats equals to 12.2 alchohal and that will make me all bernardo so thats what im going to do today. thats about it late jouenal. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 21st, 2006
2:37 am	hey journal havent updated u in awhile, nothing good has happen it just been a eh day, i went to adams house, and he told his sister that i said she was beautifull she got specching less and lil shy, but thats about it. her friend couldnt stop begging me, she started throwing shit at me and idk know her =/ well thats about it late journal (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 18th, 2006
1:54 am	song im thinking of Forgive and forget It's just a memory It won't get me very far this time Is what I've done to you unforgivable? Silence fills the room and I get the message. The emptiness is all that's left this time. Is what I meant to you that forgetable? Better than Better than me, of course. You're always right. You're always on the ball. Better than Better than everything I've done for you, 'cause now you can finally sleep. Can you smile too? I took it as a threat You meant it as the doctrine Of everything that was and would become. I don't have to ask, you don't miss me at all. You made it so obvious When you slowly walked away And then I prayed in vain. I would've traded everything even for just a taste. I'll live with the loneliness. but I'll never forget I was never your best bet. Better than Better than me of course. You're always right. You're always on the ball. Better than Better than everything I've done for you Cause now you can finally sleep. Can you smile too? Now you can sleep, can you smile too? Can you smile now that im gone? (Comment on this)
1:37 am	degrassie Man i just watched degrassie and damn, shawn did what i did lil bit. got mad at 1 mistake, he moved away from his love like i did, he came back but they got back togather, something that never happen to me, to be honest i kinda wanted jessie and i to ended up back togather, but it something that never happen every show i see ever song i hear reminds of of what i did, degrassie didnt but now degrassie did, he never forgetting what emma did like how i never forget what jessie did.. it was something i was really depressed and mad about, but i stoped being depressed and everything but no matter what i wont forget that day, just like sean wouldnt on degrassie. well thought this day would b better but doesnt look like its going to b... Current Mood: crushed (Comment on this)
12:24 am	today was ight, i got some texts today so i might b able to get some texts idk for sure, im gonna get drunk today for a friends b day, ima get all bernardo out, well thats about it nothing really happening about now. well ttyl journal (Comment on this)
Friday, November 17th, 2006
1:54 am	no more work my cell phone wont text, well it texts but they never get to the other person, and who knows whose been texting me, so thats sucks thats really about what happen today, nothing else, well ttyl journal.. just hope that jessie didnt text me.. i dont want her to think im mad at her.. (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 16th, 2006
3:42 am	hey journal, i got my work permit today, but i heard i need to get a 2.0 or higher which is very easy because i got that but i cant have no d's or f's and i only have 1 d and thats in english because i was never good at it. well nothing really happen to today, i kinda miss jessie though, but thats about it, well ttyl journal (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 15th, 2006
1:29 am	lil tired im lil tired for some reason, and for some reason my stomech is hurting really bad. nothing really bad happen today, or good, today was all right. i tired to call every 1 i knew yesterday but no 1 answer and i didnt want to call jessie cuz i didnt want to bother her. well late journal. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 14th, 2006
4:01 am	eh =\ nothing really happen today, just boredness i guess. no one to really talk tonight, i didnt want to call jessie because i talked to her all night i think it was saterday, so i didnt wanna bother her again. but nothing really happen, well ttyl journal. (Comment on this)
Monday, November 13th, 2006
5:34 am	happy i was happy yesterday when i was talking to jessie, for osme reason shes th eonly girl that really makes me very happy when she calls or when we spend time talking to each other, i finally know why she didnt want to hang up, becuz she know si'll b sad so she was hoping if i fall asleep she'll hang up so i wouldnt know, so i couldnt b sad, thats what i think, but ill b sad anytime because i like to spend time with her and shes really the only girl that really makes me happy, and i'd hate not to talk to that 24/7. but i know i got to stop talking to her alot cuz i dont want to start bothering her, i texted her today but she said she was playing a game and never texted me back after that... i wanted to talk to her but i suppose she was busy... well thats about it late journal. (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 11th, 2006
6:32 pm	a dream i had a dream that night when i feel asleep. i was at my school and i went into the restroom and some guys wit my friend were in there and got something out of the restroom and jumped around like lil girls and i was like wtf, but i went to take a piss and i came out and everyone in the hole school started running and i was like wtf is happening and then i saw him with a gun and i was like oh shit, and he started to shot at people in the stands and bodies were flying in the air and shit, pretty werid ass dream. (Comment on this)
6:26 pm	meanie meanie Yesterday i was thinking about texting jessie becaused i miss her. but i guess she texted me when i was playing a game and i didnt hear it, so when i saw it, i got lil sad because i really wanted to spend time talking to her and when i texted her back she didnt texted me back because it was an hour later and she was maybe sleeping and so i feel asleep lil sad but im fine now, but she texted me back but guess when.. when she was bored and nothing else to do... shes is so mean, she cant text me or call me when she misses me or anything only when shes bored.. she such a mean girl... Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
12:17 am	the club the club was badass, i had like 2 coronas half of a 211 half of a tilt and little bit of a audios. audios doesnt taste that good but its okay. i was sweating likt hell in the club, hot ass chicks there to, i might b going there again in 2 weeks.. if they aint closed, i never got carded for anything and their suppose to card you. they give me a ristband which means im 21 or older, so i could of bought anything i want in the bar. it was badass. hope i get to go their again. (Comment on this)
Friday, November 10th, 2006
3:48 am	the day! today is the day i get drunk with my buddies and hopyfull get laid. today is the day i wear my new shirt new pants and feel all new brand new again. no 1 can stop me tonight, im on fire. i got my hair shorter so i look older. gonna have my cell phone with me to get some girls numbers. all ready and brand new, 2 more hours the club starts and im ready, ima do good tonight! Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 9th, 2006
1:49 am	another 1 When I cry you help me out When I'm happy you hear me shout When I grin you know I'm really mad because you are my best friend You can tell when I'm sad You're there in thick and thin You're my best friend You hear me out when I want to talk You help me out when I get mad You are the bestest friend I've ever had So hear me out when I say You're the light in my day You are the moon in my night You shine very bright You are the bestest friend I have and i wanted to tell you that I love you. (Comment on this)
1:47 am	poem i saw One day when you feel alone Remember i'm at the end of a phone I love you loads And that must show I want to let all the world to no I have a friend, that is you I love you for all you do Your face so sweet and your heart so gentle Keeping me together when i'm going mental Telling me you love me and that you hold me tight Being there for me even in the night Thank you friend you mean a lot to me Maybe now you'll see How much you mean to me (Comment on this)
12:23 am	1 more day! 1 more day untill hte cluuub, gonna b tight, i got new black pants, new famous stars and strips shirt. ima get a new hair cut again, then ima get buzzed then wake up fucked up again then go to the dentist. im going to get bernardo out, alex wants to come, but idk if i can take her, but i should take her out so we can all get buzzed out and have a good time. well thats about today, nothing really bad happen at school, so i cant wait untill tomorrow niiiight, well ttyl journal. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 8th, 2006
2:52 am	today i almost got in a fight with another mexican. mexicans think there all that, i hate when people do that. i was on fire today to i suppose, p.e was crazy, thats really about today, nothing really happening, im going to the club on thursday just 2 more days to party woo hoo! going to a 18+ age club, i guess ima get wasted again, but hope not to wasted, my friend nacho got wasted and his best friend gave him hickeys all over his next, so hes not gonna party with her again lol. anyway thats about it, im trying not to call jessie or text her, i dont want to bother her, cuz i know theres 1 day i'll keep calling her and texting and then bam, shit well happen, and i dont want that happening again, well ttyl journal. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 7th, 2006
1:30 am	man, i was so waste di couldnt believe it but anyway, today at school i was everywhere, in p.e i couldnt stop moving i was runnign faster then a mother fucker i was up and down basketball court vollyball and everywhere shit, i was hyper, i told debi to shut the fuck up on accidnt i thought jessica said something but they sound kinda of the same, but i said sry later on, my cuddle side came out.. always when im talking to jessica to...some parts of my nice side comes out...oh well. i just cant be so mean to jessica... oh well but anyway school was kool, and shit, and hope its gonna b good tomorrow well late nigga journal (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 5th, 2006
6:40 pm	for some reason i looked at you and smiled the other day i thought you'd see me, but you didnt i said i love you, and waited for what you'd say i thought you'd hear me, but you didnt i asked you to come outside and play ball with me i thought you'd fallow, but you didnt i drew a picture just for you to see i thought you'd save it forever, but you didnt i made a fort for us back in the woods i thought you'd camp out with me, but you didnt i found some worms and stuff for fishing i thought you'd wanna go, but you didnt i needed you just to talk to, share my thoughts with i thought you'd want to, but you didnt i told you about this day hoping you would show up to play i thought for sure you'd come, but you didnt i asked you to share my youth with me, i thought you'd want to but you couldnt my country called me off to war you asked me to come home safly, but i didnt keep the ones you love close to you and make sure they know you love them, all the time because anything could happen at any time make sure who ever you loev knows you love them because this world can be a pretty shocking place sometimes for some reason this poem is in my mind.. i thought i should put it up. (Comment on this)